Category: Family


Fly


Last night, we were talking with Marsha about the development of the butterfly.

This had me thinking about how, the cycle of life is exactly like the butterfly,

Just as Marsha had suggested.

But with humans…the caterpillar stage is what happens in childhood

The larva stage is when we…fall asleep.

Not an over night rest…

But when we stop connecting and stop learning

We become bored and unchallenged.

We stop talking about our dreams

And eventually we just stop having them.

We fall off into a deep slumber.

Understand that rest is the only way the body can recharge and heal.

Rest is a necessity; so we are talking about numbing ourselves to life…

Where we never have to feel any extreme emotions.

Often, we raise our families, in that slumber…

What does that teach our kids?

How to effectively avoid, deflect, ignore and give up on life.

Generally, we will stay in this stage forever…

However, some larva beside us…are waking up…

The waking up period is as beautiful and painful as you can imagine.

It’s literally re-birth

Imagine that dark, warm, wet tunnel…

Suddenly there are unexplainable

Sounds

Light

And Freezing Cold

This is very similar,

In that when we are waking…we have to first get that

Everything we ever thought was probably a lie of some proportion

But now is not the time for blame…

Casting shadows or putting the blame on others…

Only takes away from where we should be.

We have to research and re-learn

We have to attempt to absorb the information

Setting aside any heavy tones that may have grown there…

For the understanding of the Greater Good.

I think, quite possibly, that this cycle of life

Is meant to teach us how to reconnect to ALL…

Nature and wildlife are calling to us

We feel more pulled towards crystals and natural healing

Service has become a way of life…for many.

And until we learn the lesson this cycle is sent to teach us

We will constantly experience the same energy in other people places and ideas.

Once we have elevated from this place…

First let us say…

Congratulations!!

We know it wasn’t easy

When we begin taking flight, spiritually

You will always know…

Things will come out of nowhere

And that was the case this past week…

In a period of a few days

We were remembering one of our own…

When illness hit the tribe…

And when one of our Matriarchs crossed over…

Those were power punches

Painful…

But yet beautiful…

Because I have the insight to know

That life is always showing us rainbows

But it can be difficult to see them

If we are still angry about the storm that brought it

All lessons, even grief, are necessary

Our bodies are very temporary

They become weak and can no longer carry the energy of our spirit

So we know that what is called death…

Is just a continuation of another life cycle

And the only reason it is painful…

Is because we have begun to attach ourselves to the existence of others

Instead of bonding with people…

We are possessing them

Even using possessiveness as a scale

To determine how much we are loved and appreciated.

As beings, our thought process can be quite defeating

In a “putting the cart ahead of the horse”…kind of way

For instance, we spend huge amounts of time ignoring those in our lives

Just to mourn for them so deeply after they have passed

And remembering them through stories and pictures…

And while this is a beautiful sight…

How much more beautiful would this have been…

Had this much care and concern been given while they were breathing.

#NoJudgmentJustLove

Once we can begin to recognize that love is not romantic gas

That we can spray to find our happily ever after…

Then we can come to the realization that love

Is not a Valentines Day Card

Red Roses

A box of chocolates

Or any other such occasion…

No…

Love is energy…

Like our Chakras

Love energy…similar to electric energy

Must move back and forth

Love is not possession

It won’t make him/her yours…

Love is patience, with kindness

Love is compassion, with humility

Love is empathy , and balance.

All this seems like a lot…it is

But…like  the majestic Butterfly

We are also equipped to withstand the growth through evolution…

Don’t be afraid any longer

#YouAreNotAlone

Stretch out your wings…

Fly…

 

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Do It Anyway


Grief is a funny thing
BC the same thing that made you smile 15 minutes ago
Will have you in tears
But eventually the grief becomes
One of the deepest spiritual connections that one can have
I really do miss spending time with Liss
This is a new kind of love for me
BC even though I mourned the passing of 4 grandparents
I had never experienced death
With anyone That I have loved this much
I just didn’t want to do it
I wanted to kick and scream
Curse and stomp…
But no matter what I did
She didn’t come back…
The Universe has such a way
Of telling us that it CLEARLY is not about US lol
We call that Humility
I constantly am plagued with mixed emotions about her
I get angry at her for leaving me
But I understand it was her time
And that has to be good enough
I have to know that I loved her enough
That when she left…she felt me within her
And I know it wasn’t easy for her to go
But I have to tell you…
I always feel her with me
Sometimes I see her smile in a stranger
Or someone will pass with her beautiful blue eyes
Or a scent will capture my attention…
Simply bc I have smelled it on her before
So don’t confuse my talk about her
With unresolved Grief…
I feel her energy every where
And just as she did in life…
She is still watching out for me…
Hold the ppl in your lives today
Give them a deep meaningful embrace…
Some people won’t look like they need
That transfer of energy…
Do it anyway…
Sometimes we don’t realize how broken we are
Until someone tries to pour love in to us

Enjoy your week
I Love You

Happy Mother’s Day


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When they ask

What would you like for Mother’s Day

My answer never deviates

For Mother’s Day I would like

Limitless hugs and kisses

I would like to hear about your day

I would like you to finally realize

That my love for you

Knows NO boundaries

I love and stand beside you

WILLFULLY

I celebrate you

On Mother’s Day

For you are the gauge

By which my success is judged

SO when I am asked what I want…

I am being 100% honest when I reply

You …

You..

You…give me all I need every day

So while mom’s every where

Are celebrating tomorrow…

Me and mine…

We celebrate every day

As a mom I want to say

Thank You

You have always given more to me

Than I could ever give back

And I am full of thanks…

For this experience of motherhood…

Gives GOD energy…

I do LOVE YOU SO

 

Understand This…


Understand This…

Life has lessons to teach us
There are truths that we must learn
Some of these lessons will be very difficult
They will make us uncomfortable
They will challenge our will
It will seem to break your heart
It will make music sad to you
While still making you laugh…
Become patient with the lessons
You need to know them…
Life is not working against you
But only LIFE knows
What we NEED to know
Before we are able to move forward
Use your calm…
Forgiving…
Healing
Loving energy…
And embrace the message…
Whatever yours may be…
Understand this…
You
Are
Not
Alone


​We spend so much of our lives waiting…

Waiting for Mr Mrs Right

Waiting for a promotion

Waiting for our ship to come in

Waiting for the weekend

Waiting for vacation…

How great would it be

If we could find TRUE pleasure in our everyday lives

Find that thing that we can be happy about

Find what moves us daily

Find that the love we have been waiting for

Has always been with us

Find that WE are the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow

Find

Learn

Accept That…

You 

Alone

Are

Enough

How Did YOU Help?


I watched a video recently
It was a little girl who was talking to her brother about his greatness
She was loving and kind…
At one point she says…
You are a star…and you shine
At that moment you saw the dark clouds lift from him
And he develops this most contagious smile
Self love is usually something that we believe we all have
And we should have it…
But too often…
We are looking for someone else to legitimize who we are
We are searching for Mr Right
While we become…Ms. RightNow
Self love is not about an ego out of control
It is about acknowledgement
Its about acceptance
It is about being comfortable in your own skin
NO matter what your skin looks like
And it does NOT mean that you look better than someone else
And everytime I hear that type of chatter
I cannot help but to wonder why a person would have so much self loathing
You see if you are comfortable with who you are…
You would only want the very best for others…
You would smile at their accomplishments…
Not sit around watching for them to fall
Arrogance is not necessary…
If you REALLY understand who YOU are
YOU have your own light
Don’t use it to blind someone …
Use it to guide them…
Don’t use it to point out other peoples flaws
Use it to appreciate the very ALL-ness of them
Learn to love ALL people
Understand that we all have a history…
A story to tell
And just because ours are not the same…
Does not mean that yours is less important than mine
Find forgiveness for yourself…
And when u look at that person
The one who you talk about negatively…
Find yourself in them…
Seek your Creator in all things…
Talk to everyone as if you are praying for yourself
And remember at the end of this life cycle
It is very likely we will be asked
How did YOU help…
I love you all

Less


After my sister passed away
I had to deal with more pain
Than I had ever known
Not physical pain…I had become accustomed to that
But REAL heart break
And almost like a 6 year old
I decided I had dealt with enough…
And i just wasn’t equipped enough
Not strong enough
It was too hard
I literally threw a temper tantrum in my mind
But the thing was…
Whether I was ready or not
Whether it made me sad or not
It was here…
I had no choice
I remember talking to her around New Years Eve…
As I often do…since she passed
Telling her….I hate this
I wanted to see her
To touch her face…
And she said to me…while laughing
Have you ever loved anyone that you couldn’t touch?
Of course…everyone has
She said….do u love them less?
Of course not…but this isn’t the same
I want to be able to see you…
She reminded me that the kind of love we have now
Is the first kind of love we ever felt
Its unconditional…
It is not determined by man
Nor his/her physical needs
She said it will always be here for you
You can never undo it
No matter what choices you make…
I will always have my hands on your shoulders
She reminded me of the way I loved most people I know
And this was it…
Completely…without expectation…
I am thankful for those moments…
It reminded me of where i am supposed to be
Not for others…
But for my ancestors…
Love without expectation…
And you will never be disappointed
I miss you Melissa …
But I am not capable of loving you less….

Too Much


You cannot love too much
Often what we confuse for love
Is the expectation that we attach to it
I will love you as long as you do this or that
Or even worse…
I will love you until you do this or that
This,infact, is not love at all
This is possession
And a manipulation tactic that we are taught
True love…real love
Comes without strings or stipulations
It is unconditional
Of course we must all do what is in the best interest
Of our own specific paths…
So unconditional love does not mean
We will always be this or that
But it means that I love you no matter what you choose
It says you will always be good enough
From a divine point of view
Today I would implore you to begin
Yes…let’s start…
Loving ourselves unconditionally
Whether you eat that piece of cake or not
Whether you go to the gym or not
Whether you you break all your New Year Resolutions
Or Not
Just know that YOU are worth a second look
YOU are worth praise
YOU are worthy of unconditional Love
So today…understand that you cannot give anyone too much love
By doing so…it does not run your reservoir dry
You have plenty to go around
Become the love that you are seeking…
Enjoy your day family
I love you always…in All Ways

You Are Never Alone


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Grief is a difficult cycle of life
We will be told that we are sorry for our loss
But really what we lost is just the control of
Our own emotions
Its a transformation of love change
It makes us sad
Because we have forgotten
This is the first type of love ever given to us
Divine love
Love without barriers
Without bars or windows
As humans we may try and facilitate
Physical love…
And that confuses our higher selves
Because our souls realize
That physical love is limiting
It causes us to forget that smells and sounds
Colors and a gentle breeze
Made us smile as infants
Not because we could wrap our tiny fingers around it
But because we understood, at that time
What it was like to be loved from within
For so many of our friends and family members
I wish I could stop the aching in your hearts
I know it too well
And I hope one day you will be able to receive
What I am trying to give to you
Because all the love you were given…
No matter how short their stay here…
Was a seed that they planted
Something that will always connect you
And one day when you are desperately seeking an answer
And one shows up…
Without explanation…
Just know that it was your loved one(s)
Giving you a moment of relief
Love never leaves you
In fact…
From this point forward it can only grow
Just know that you are being watched
From a place that you have been before
But have forgotten
Love knows no boundaries…
And you will never be alone

I’m Not Strong Enough


 

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In about 3 weeks, on January 4th…
It will be 5 years since my sister left this place.
It always leaves me feeling like she JUST left
Over and over again
And during times when I swear I just want to give up
And believe me there are plenty of those…
I remember having a conversation with her once…
Telling me that I should never make apologies for who or what I am
Never let anyone else’s ideas of who you should be…
Taint who you know that you are
For most people the holidays can be happy times
And for some it is sad and depressing…
For me…
Getting past the holiday season is greeted with the fact
That 5 years ago…just after all the decorations and celebrations were over
That cold early morning call came in to me
Jen, mom won’t wake up
I don’t think she is breathing,,,
There is NOTHING…
NOTHING…
That can prepare you for THAT kind of heartache
She was strong…
The most beautiful kind of strong
And while I, often, quite desperately
Try to recall our millions of conversations
There is only one that tends to stand out…
When I was very ill…
Just waking from a coma
She came to see me…
She grabbed my hand and smiled
Her blue eyes sparkling…
I knew you would be okay
How could you have known that?
I am not strong enough to live without you
God will have to take me first…
And so it was…
Please make the most of your moments
Those that you are certain will be here no matter what
Won’t
Those phone calls you have put off until tomorrow
Those visits to the family that KNOW U LOVE THEM
Make those calls and visits…
There is nothing worse than
A life filled with regret and sorrow
So during this holiday…
Hold your loved ones close
I love you all
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