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Understand This…


Understand This…

Life has lessons to teach us
There are truths that we must learn
Some of these lessons will be very difficult
They will make us uncomfortable
They will challenge our will
It will seem to break your heart
It will make music sad to you
While still making you laugh…
Become patient with the lessons
You need to know them…
Life is not working against you
But only LIFE knows
What we NEED to know
Before we are able to move forward
Use your calm…
Forgiving…
Healing
Loving energy…
And embrace the message…
Whatever your may be…
Understand this…
You
Are
Not
Alone

How Did YOU Help?


I watched a video recently
It was a little girl who was talking to her brother about his greatness
She was loving and kind…
At one point she says…
You are a star…and you shine
At that moment you saw the dark clouds lift from him
And he develops this most contagious smile
Self love is usually something that we believe we all have
And we should have it…
But too often…
We are looking for someone else to legitimize who we are
We are searching for Mr Right
While we become…Ms. RightNow
Self love is not about an ego out of control
It is about acknowledgement
Its about acceptance
It is about being comfortable in your own skin
NO matter what your skin looks like
And it does NOT mean that you look better than someone else
And everytime I hear that type of chatter
I cannot help but to wonder why a person would have so much self loathing
You see if you are comfortable with who you are…
You would only want the very best for others…
You would smile at their accomplishments…
Not sit around watching for them to fall
Arrogance is not necessary…
If you REALLY understand who YOU are
YOU have your own light
Don’t use it to blind someone …
Use it to guide them…
Don’t use it to point out other peoples flaws
Use it to appreciate the very ALL-ness of them
Learn to love ALL people
Understand that we all have a history…
A story to tell
And just because ours are not the same…
Does not mean that yours is less important than mine
Find forgiveness for yourself…
And when u look at that person
The one who you talk about negatively…
Find yourself in them…
Seek your Creator in all things…
Talk to everyone as if you are praying for yourself
And remember at the end of this life cycle
It is very likely we will be asked
How did YOU help…
I love you all

Less


After my sister passed away
I had to deal with more pain
Than I had ever known
Not physical pain…I had become accustomed to that
But REAL heart break
And almost like a 6 year old
I decided I had dealt with enough…
And i just wasn’t equipped enough
Not strong enough
It was too hard
I literally threw a temper tantrum in my mind
But the thing was…
Whether I was ready or not
Whether it made me sad or not
It was here…
I had no choice
I remember talking to her around New Years Eve…
As I often do…since she passed
Telling her….I hate this
I wanted to see her
To touch her face…
And she said to me…while laughing
Have you ever loved anyone that you couldn’t touch?
Of course…everyone has
She said….do u love them less?
Of course not…but this isn’t the same
I want to be able to see you…
She reminded me that the kind of love we have now
Is the first kind of love we ever felt
Its unconditional…
It is not determined by man
Nor his/her physical needs
She said it will always be here for you
You can never undo it
No matter what choices you make…
I will always have my hands on your shoulders
She reminded me of the way I loved most people I know
And this was it…
Completely…without expectation…
I am thankful for those moments…
It reminded me of where i am supposed to be
Not for others…
But for my ancestors…
Love without expectation…
And you will never be disappointed
I miss you Melissa …
But I am not capable of loving you less….

You Are Never Alone


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Grief is a difficult cycle of life
We will be told that we are sorry for our loss
But really what we lost is just the control of
Our own emotions
Its a transformation of love change
It makes us sad
Because we have forgotten
This is the first type of love ever given to us
Divine love
Love without barriers
Without bars or windows
As humans we may try and facilitate
Physical love…
And that confuses our higher selves
Because our souls realize
That physical love is limiting
It causes us to forget that smells and sounds
Colors and a gentle breeze
Made us smile as infants
Not because we could wrap our tiny fingers around it
But because we understood, at that time
What it was like to be loved from within
For so many of our friends and family members
I wish I could stop the aching in your hearts
I know it too well
And I hope one day you will be able to receive
What I am trying to give to you
Because all the love you were given…
No matter how short their stay here…
Was a seed that they planted
Something that will always connect you
And one day when you are desperately seeking an answer
And one shows up…
Without explanation…
Just know that it was your loved one(s)
Giving you a moment of relief
Love never leaves you
In fact…
From this point forward it can only grow
Just know that you are being watched
From a place that you have been before
But have forgotten
Love knows no boundaries…
And you will never be alone

New Year New You


Love comes from the most unexpected places
Its just FaceBook they will say
They aren’t my REAL friends they will add
They don’t matter…
I have to laugh at that thought
Love surrounds us
Whether it is physically tangible or not
I was reminded of that fact yesterday
Love never leaves us
It flows in and out of our being…every day
It isn’t just Facebook…
Its an opportunity
An opportunity to do better
By being better
So if it is just this or that to you…
Perhaps that is because that is all you want it to be
In which case…welll you get what you emit
To me it is family…
I love the people in my circle
If I found you offensive or malicious
Toward me or my family…
You would know….bc we would no longer be connected here
So January 5th is the start of my New Year
I hope yours is filled with beginnings
The start of a romance…with yourself
Where YOU matter…as much to YOU
As you matter to me
As for my tribe…
‪#‎NineTribe‬
We will roll into the new year…
Doing what we do best
Reminding you…all of you…‪#‎NoMatterWhat‬
You
Are
Not
Alone
I love you all…

You Are Perfect


Whether you are celebrating Christmas, Kwanzaa, Hanukkah..or none of the above
Whether this was a stellar year
Or if you had unforeseen hardships
If you were healthy
Or you struggled with a chronic illness
This past year was an opportunity
It was a year of growth
A year of gain
2015 was not easy for so many of my friends and family…
Myself included…
But do not allow it to steal your joy…
When we are given the opportunity to grow…
It is a clear sign of how deeply we are and have been loved
Everywhere you look
You will find people whose struggles are a bit different from yours
Let us try and keep those beautiful people in our minds
As we wrap up this most adventurous year
Let us take a moment to pray or meditate
To re-focus our energy on what really matters…
You are still here
That is not an accident…
You are what made someone smile…
You are the foundation of someone’s laughter
Their sign that hope is still alive…
So while our children are unwrapping presents
Or bowing their heads in gratitude
Remember that…
Love knows No Boundaries
It carries no price tag
It looks for no thanks
Or pat on the back
Instead let us look back at 2015 with fondness
And whether it was a lesson or a blessing for you
The fact that you are here with us right now
Makes you a blessing to me and those whom I love
On behalf of my family
My Rays of Light Publishing
and
#Ninetribe
We want to thank you for all that you have become
It has been amazing to watch you grow
So enjoy your holiday
But remember always
That you are perfect…
And We Love You…Always

Here


Here

No matter what you are feeling
No matter what struggle keeps calling your name
No matter who your enemies are
OR who seems to be winning the game

I will promise you this
On all that I own
The sun always rises
And You Are Not Alone

I know you may feel broken
I know the road makes you weary
But I can promise you one thing
That I can see most clearly

It is always darkest before dawn
This I have always known
Hold your head up beautiful warrior
For You Are Not Alone

So when the battle flags are flying

When no hope seems to be in sight

Hold on to the old promise

You will be alright

For these are the lessons

Separates the children from us

These moments will aid in

Teaching that enough is enough

And as surely as I write this

There is a soul that is crying out

About how alone they feel

They just want to cry…no shout

No matter how difficult the lesson may be

No matter how long til it has passed

This is the temporary journey

It’s not meant to last

So pick up your heart

Dust off your tattered soul

While I tell you another thing

That you may or may not know

You are not measured by man

Not his intention or reason

You were cultivated in pure love

And THAT never goes out of season

Upward and onward for you

The message is clear

I am here for you

And will always be near

                                    ~LM Young

To My Sister


To My Sister

 

 

I was thinking about the day the Doctor told me I had Cervical Cancer.

The ground shifted under my feet; did she say Cancer? No, there must be a mistake. I just went in for a checkup a few days before…life was normal. Did she say cancer? No, she has me confused with someone else. Things like this don’t happen to me.

I must have looked at her like she was speaking in a foreign language, because she just looked back and didn’t utter a word. I felt her touch the top of my hand…I snatched it back, as if she sent an electric charge through my skin.

No, don’t console me. She was wrong. Do I look like a cancer patient? No. I do everything right. I am kind to people. I watch what I eat. I exercise. I pray. Things like this aren’t supposed to happen to people like me. I kept muttering to myself…what did I do wrong? I spoke a little too loudly. She responded as if I were asking her the question. She said there is often no explanation as to what causes a woman to start producing cancerous cells. Did she say cancer, again? I shook my head in disbelief…will someone make her stop saying that?

She asked if someone was with me, because we needed to discuss treatments.

Of course no one was with me…this was just a checkup, I thought to myself. Treatment, did she say treatment? Ummm, how do we get rid of it? I asked softly.

She smiled. “Why was she smiling?”

There is no cure for cervical cancer. No cure?

Okay, yeah, I knew that. Breathe…don’t forget to breathe. Do not pass out. I asked her, “Why do I have Cancer”? She gave me the generic, “there is no way to know why exactly”. She went on about genetics, diet, and other contributing factors, but wrapped it up by telling me that it may be none of the above. Why did I ask dumb questions? I knew all of this.

“Wait, am I going to die?” I almost couldn’t see her expression, blinking through my own tears. We are going to try and get it under control before we have to think about that.

Try? Breathe…don’t forget to breathe, Wait, don’t breathe too hard…you are going to start hyperventilating. It’s going to be okay, but you have to get a grip on your emotions, right now.

She started telling me that she wanted to try and freeze the cells…but the disease was too progressive. We have to do a biopsy; to see exactly what we are dealing with. My mind started spinning. How did I get to this place?

Two weeks before, I was in a car accident. For the most part, all of my injuries seemed superficial. My face was severely bruised, so much so, that on my first doctor’s visit; the nurse asked me if I was a domestic violence victim. Both of my eyes were black and blue. My face was swollen, and my lip was cut open, too. There were bruises on my thighs, ribs, and across both of my breasts.

It was the bruising on my breasts, which prompted me to visit my OB/GYN. I wanted make sure there were no lumps or anything like that since I hit the dashboard so hard.

The Doctor asked me if I wanted a pap smear while I was there. I can recall thinking, no. But for whatever reason, I said yes.

Two weeks later, there I was…living with cancer. My doctor said there was no telling how long I had actually had it. She said it could have been dormant in my system for a while, and the accident could have jarred something in me…causing it to spread.

How could I go home and explain everything that my doctor just told me? I had Cancer. I kept saying it over and over again as I got in the car. I thought if I said it enough, by the time I got home, I would be able to say it without crying.

I decided, instead of going straight home, I would go to see you. I needed a safe place to go, where I could fall apart…just for a minute. I just needed a minute. I kept praying all the way to your apartment…please, God…let me have this one minute.

I barely remember you answering the door. I just remember falling into you. You were confused. You kept touching my face, looking for a new injury. You were talking so fast that I couldn’t answer you. My mouth wouldn’t move. Finally, I told you that my doctor said that I had Cervical Cancer, and I just fell apart.

You kept saying NO…over and over again. You were crying so hard; I could no longer determine who was consoling whom. I told you that unless the treatments worked, before it started spreading further, I might die. Somehow, you mustered up all of this strength and told me that was NOT going to happen.

You were an angel to me in that moment. You went with me to tell mom. It was no longer me having Cancer, but us having it. During the entire ordeal, your faith and strength never wavered; you continued to be the glue that kept me together.

You were my anchor during every pivotal moment in my life. You encouraged me, laughed with me, and let me lean on you.

And then there was silence.

I don’t think I ever thanked you enough. I don’t think I ever told you I loved you…enough. I will regret that for the rest of my life. I will regret everything we didn’t do, and all things we didn’t get a chance to say.

I love you…and I know you are living pain free so I know I must sound selfish…I am sorry.

I just miss you so much…

 

Love,

Me

 

Love As I Know It


Love As I Know It

 

Love is so much deeper than a musical lyric. . It is the primal source from which we all have come.

Can love be intimate? Of course, but love more than a physical desire- for often that has less to do with love and more to do with lust.

I am not here to talk you out of your desires. Often they are telling us something about ourselves; that even we, do not yet realize. Many people will deny their carnal desires- out of some loyalty to a thought or ideal about themselves.

Acknowledging a hidden sexual desire does not mean you have to or will become something/someone sordid. It only means there is a piece of you which is untapped. We can safely embrace these facets of our sexuality- even if only in a fantasy/role play; with our loving non-judgmental partner.

Love is kind, even in the wake of a storm. It is passionate- which is what drives us. It is not necessarily a thought of another person; it can be an idea or cause…which drives you. Love is completely encompassing. It is the basis of all emotions, idea and the greatest source of all creation.

Love, like our Creator, is all around, inside of, beside and beneath us. It never fails us. We, however, may develop a tainted way of embracing it. We may feel that we are owed a certain type of love; which is less about love and more about our own sense of ego.

People are not merchandise. If love isn’t given away freely, without expectation- it can become a bargaining chip.

Many women, who have endured physical and emotional abuse, may have viewed this type of controlling behavior…disguised as love.

But love knows nothing of boundaries. It is not something which can be used as a down payment.

When we use phrases like- “I will if…” or “Only if you…” we are making a claim which is not ours to make.

Love magnifies; it doesn’t dissect. If we attempt to place love under a microscope for the purpose of an attack on another’s character- it will be us who will be judged most harshly.

Love is gallant; it is valiant. Love is an untapped reserve.

Unfortunately, we tend to take a relationship, which didn’t work out and blame that on love. Truthfully speaking relationships do not fail us. We do, however, often spend too much time attempting to mold them into something they were never supposed to be.

We hold on too tightly to a leaf, as if one day, it will become the tree. We fail to see things for the blessings they are and we become angered by the reality of the situation.

Some people are supposed to be; no more than the energy that pushes us over a small speed bump. It would, perhaps, be unwise to make that person a member of your pit crew. Learn when to let go, for there is so much love, even in that decision.

Try to recall learning how to ride a bicycle for the first time. Most of us had someone we trusted pushing us along, cautiously, making certain we didn’t fall. But eventually, they loved us enough to let go. We may have been wobbly, at first, but, in time, we were able to ride freely.

Love is not binding or brash. Love is giving without regard to self. Being loving to another does not take away from who we are. If the type of love we are exhibiting for another; becomes self-destructive for us- it is not love.

When this happens, it can be more about control or neediness. We should veer away from these types of relationships.

The mindset which tells us; certain behavior will show our loved ones that we are the ones which TRULY love them. This is a full blown manipulation tactic; even if we are only manipulating ourselves.

We must be cautious when truly relating to people. Relating refers to the transfer of all types of energy. Physical energy is only one variant of this type of transfer. We MUST keep in mind that the people we share energy with, be it in touching, conversation, thoughts or other transfers, will also share our energy with others and they with us.

Love is the divine transfer of energy. It is that energy which is transferred by the heat of the sun’s rays; the water splashing across our feet and the sand sinking beneath our feet, as we walk upon the beach. That source which tilts our faces toward the sun and brings a smile to our faces.

Love is the steady beating of drums, which aligns with our own heart rhythm. Love is the sprouting of a plant; which we have watered and cared for, since the moment it was planted. It is nothing less than love; which prompts us to pull weeds away from a garden, carefully making sure it has plenty of healthy breathing room.

Love is that soft melodic voice we use when speaking to a baby or a puppy. The tone alone which is saying- I mean you no harm.

Love is expressed with empathy and compassion. It is felt in an unexpected smile.

Contradictive to what the author tell us…you can always go home, because home never leaves us. It is the ground beneath our feet. It is the foundation by which all else is constructed. What we should try and remember is that what we carry around with us- which we may have chosen- is sometimes the very thing that can do us harm.

Pain will always exist. It can live in a debilitating illness, or by chance…like when we stub our toe. Suffering, however, is optional. We may have endured great pain or injury, but we do not have to become that pain.

Instead, we could choose to carry around the wise words of a grandparent or the thoughtful words of a complete stranger. We could use our words to divide and conquer- or to gather and reap. We can burn down a forest or embrace its majestic wonder. We can huff and puff until we blow the house down, or we can mindfully breathe…allowing our lungs, body, soul and spirit to become one with the universe.

People are going to hurt us- pain is inevitable. We will have expectations of people that they will not be able to live up to; but we do not have to suffer. Our soul is resilient- it can withstand more than a human mind can wrap itself around. Pain is instantaneous; suffering can stunt growth and development. Even while reading this…feel the tension in your neck and shoulders. Notice how your jaws are tightening. Note how your brow wrinkles…while your mind tries to fight these truths. This often happens when we are holding onto our suffering.

We can choose to hold onto this: formal, stern, straight face…or not. The only we must do is to choose. Even in reading this, be mindful of your facial muscles and hands.

Is your face relaxed? Are your hands clinched or crossed across your chest? Are your jaws clinched tightly? These are typical signs that you are resisting, even the possibility of another’s ideas; even if these may help you and/or your understanding. Many of the actions/reactions mentioned can symbolize resistance or closed off behavior.

We must keep in mind: Everything that is said to us is not necessarily meant FOR us…specifically. It would be wise for us to take the valuable information- apply it to our lives and pass it on to others. All things deserve consideration, respectfully.

With that thought in mind, consideration does not mean to think of the many ways to shut down the information; but t be open to the possibility which may lead to a deeper understanding.

Be considerate of the way we receive the information. Be mindful of the “rolling of the eyes” and “smacking of the lips”; even if the other person cannot see or hear this response.

Energy is a powerful force. We must consider the idea that our energy, whether verbal or inaudible; can open our minds or close them off. When we are open to energy it may lead us to a deeper understanding of life, love and spiritual awakening.

We must take heed; being mindful and thoughtful is about love and respect- not about giving or having leverage, over another person.

When love becomes a game, it becomes dangerous. We must always remember that in a game…someone must lose. Participating in a tug of wills, only leaves one or both parties…feeling broken.

Love is respect, kindness, empathy and compassion.

When we search for love, it can mean a few things:

  1. We are seeking intimate touch or sexual contact
  2. Or, we have yet to learn that love is the essence of what we are.

Love exists without stipulation. There is no boundary, or walls so great that it can be held back or held down.

Love all things, all of the time. Love will never fail you- embrace it and share it with the world.


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On Tuesday’s radio show, we talked about Lupus awareness; how it affects those of us who have the illness and those who love us.

It was a beautiful show, as we had much participation. Our special guest was Delma Carlton; it was a blessing to have such an inspiring woman with us.

Delma is a runner; and in November she will be running the New York Marathon for 3 great causes: Lupus, Autism, and Charge Syndrome.

After research I found that, CHARGE syndrome is a disorder that affects many areas of the body. CHARGE stands for coloboma, heart defect, atresia choanae (also known as choanal atresia), retarded growth and development, genital abnormality, and ear abnormality. The pattern of malformations varies among individuals with this disorder, and infants often have multiple life-threatening medical conditions.

I want to thank Delma for all her efforts in bringing attention to these life altering conditions.

In efforts to try and help her achieve the goals she has set; she has a site where we can all donate.

I would encourage, if you are able, to take a look at the site and donate if possible.

I want to thank you all, in advance, for your care and concern.

I wish you all Light and Love…

~LM Young

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